my big sis and i with our pup, becky, in the barn
normally i don't paint commission work and that fact showed up in communication problems, anxiety, sleepless nights, and the amount of antacids i consumed. my husband was my rock during some freak-out moments, talking me down many times. i just want people to be happy, and my perfectionistic ways override the joy i feel when in the middle of my work. as long as i was in the zone i was fine. once back into mundane land i was a wreck. i think i will continue painting for myself, and if someone loves a painting so much they want the original instead of a print i may sell it to them.
back in the old days
i decided to condense our farm into the canvas. many, many acres of well loved land are depicted where we would not normally see it all. i sketched in the back pasture, the river where i used to wade and have 'boat races' with pieces of wood the family hammered together, and our little farm road that goes to the back fields.
then i started painting the underpainting and background layers.
many layers and hours later and we are at completion!
to make this artwork even more magical for my brother, i included a word from a poetry book our dad wrote way back when, called "cape cod moods". the word i chose to include was "peace". i clipped it from one of the copies i have stashed, and included it in the clouds.
i brought the painting up to the living room to sit with it, just to make sure it was done-done, and pixel kitty gave it two paws up;
this is such an important painting to me. i know my brother will cherish it for a lifetime, as it holds our childhood memories and our dads view of heaven on earth.
now to paint one for myself!