Wednesday, April 25, 2018

inspired

I love it when a subject/artist/whatever is able to inspire me enough to get me out of a slump, even for a little while!  for some reason the fates collaborated and I was inspired by this weeks class in lets face it .  this class was by juna biagioni who is a mixed media artist and who taught the lesson very well.  the master artist we were following with juna was Kees van dongen (26 January 1877 – 28 May 1968).  

van dongen had a colorful style that I am particularly drawn to, and I chose a small 5x7 canvas and a few reference photos just to get the placement correct, not for perfect likeness.  juna had a front facing portrait and I chose one as well, as I wanted this painting to be easier for me so I wouldn't be discouraged while getting my art groove back.

I chose the red, yellow, blue color pallet I enjoyed in some of van dongens artwork;




and decided to make the reds pop even more with a brighter shade and flowers in her hair;




I will be working on the background more before I call this one completely finished, but I love how this little painting pops even from the other side of the room



I think I will be delving into van dongens style a little more, as I enjoyed the loose painting technique with my hand at the back of the paintbrush.  letting go of some control was freeing me of some anxieties I had been feeling about my art.  maybe it's time to let go a little more often!


until later,
Jenny

Monday, April 23, 2018

in a slump

hey there.  since I cant get my head on right about just working with the paint, I've been concentrating on organizing my studio and getting it the way I want.





I've also spent some time on unsplash.com finding photos that inspire me to paint.  it seems to me that the change of seasons does some strange things to my mental health.


I've worked on my queen bee painting to a point where I'm wavering between 'good enough, sign it' and 'work until you feel it's the very best it can be'.  I think thats why I've stalled.  if I get hung up on all the imperfections on each little painting I'm going to drive myself nuts, but I don't want to settle and not push myself, either.  artist A.D.D, maybe?

this is where "Queen Bee" stands now.  and I'm ok with her, but there are some things that bother me enough to question going further.  in the end, I've probably stalled enough that I should go to the next painting...  call this one 'done', put it in the database but not varnish it until either I decide it's done, I 'finish' it to my satisfaction even if it's a year later, or someone buys it.


I darkened the background and I like that she is more of a focal point now, and I made her shirt black except for a small part of the chest which is lighter, kind of an inner glow.  you can still see the green underpainting in the shirt in other areas, as well.  it all gives a Bee feel in my opinion.  I can see this clearly as a notebook!  she being on the front cover, and the back being the green.  yep.  a very nice notebook.



this week I hope to get back on track with the art.  I have my grandmas portrait I'm still mustering up the courage to continue, and another class from 'lets face it' that I'd like to put on canvas.  and I've joined "around the world thru art" , which looks like a great class with many fabulous artist teachers.  hopefully I can get my mojo going with this push.  

until later,
Jenny

Wednesday, April 11, 2018

new beginnings, and homes for my beauties

I've got several paintings in progress at the moment.  mostly of the bee variety.  I'm interested to see how I can make them all different and still draw the eye into the scene.  but, I was captivated by a photo in unsplash (a website of royalty-free images I browse for inspiration and reference photos) and knew she needed to be a queen bee for me.  here she is in progress;



I'm hoping I can do her justice.  sweeties words keep coming to me when I have these doubts;  "I know you can figure it out, you always do".  he is the best support.

ah, doubt.  I was talking to an artist friend of mine- a REAL LIFE friend who lives nearby!- and discussing why it's sometimes so difficult for me to get to the studio.  this doubt of mine.  this anxiety, this depression.  it's always whispering in my ear.  every painting I start is a hurdle of self doubt.  should I bother sketching it?  it won't look right, anyways.  and then, when I push thru and get the sketch done I'm being told not to paint it, cause I'll just ruin it.  on good days I can tell these nasty voices where they can stick their opinions.  more often than not I have to fight the demons just to step into the studio to begin the task of finding the good stuff in the paint.  I know it's in there!  I have lots of proof!  but, finding the courage to "begin again" each day, to uncover the beauty from the mud I had made the day before, the push and pull of the paint... sometimes its just a huge battle.


speaking of proof.  some of my collectors have sent me photos of my art in their new homes.  what joyful photos!  and proof that my art is loved and needed in the world.

what a peaceful home these two elephants have found!

some busy bees helping out at orange graphix


I just need to keep plugging away, painting and ignoring the doubt when I can, resting when I need to, and reminding myself that it's the journey not the destination.  I think part of my issue comes from thinking I must get it out there immediately, then I get overwhelmed.  there is a street fair each month in a neighboring town starting next month, and my brain thinks I must crank out product and go sell, sell, sell.  I don't need to do that, or anything else I don't honestly want to do!  I don't own a brick and mortar storefront where I need to be there, and sell.  I'm just here at home doing what I love and letting things evolve naturally.  sweetie just wants me to enjoy myself.   why then do I put myself thru so much pressure?  yikes!  so, again, I'm mindfully pulling back from these big events and the commitment that goes along with them.  if I find I have enough paintings to sell and a desire to run a table (with lots of support from sweetie) then thats what I will do, but I need to stop with the thinking of "what will sell" and paint what I want, when I want.  

honestly, it will create more joyful results, and thats good for everyone!

until later,
Jenny